It's what you do, unthinking, that makes the quick tear start; The tear may be forgotten -- but the hurt stays in the heart. -Ella Higginson

i just dont understand why u bother saying things when u dont mean it at all..why bother giving hopes when u know u're gonna break them later..anw it seems like u have made ur choice..all de best to u..

NCC CHALET

hohohoooooooooooooo jux came back from NCC CHALET..a nice time together with the ever fun bunch of people of different types, crazy,quiet,honest,smelly,friendly,stupid,retarded..lol simply fun, fun and more fun !

first day [thurs]
was supposed to meet at noon at downtown, but was abit late.but anyway most others were late also..slacked around, played psp, played cards till around dinner time where we started bbq..most of us stayed inside the room thou while some cooked for us outside..enjoyed the food though there's not much to eat..but was glad that most of them came over..it's has been long since we've gathered together..i somehow miss the days in de past..lol went for MAC to eat errrm i suppose dinner..lol had my first n failed attempt on MEGA MAC SPICY meal which liptat bought for me..zz -.-

p.s we dint book the bbq pit =X



went back to de chalet for more PSP n CARDS..wanted to sleep but not enuf space for everyone so some of us went out to play cards at de bbq pit table..haha so 4 person were outside at about 3am to about 5am, playing,talking and listening to songs..

Went for breakfast at MAC again before going back to the chalet for a nap till about 9 plus 10 when liptat started going crazy and rolled over all of us to wake us up..hahaha slacked n slacked till noon...then we went for lunch at Fish n Co express..it was my first time eating there ! haha shiok though itz very oily..hahaa went back to the chalet and actually was supposed to go swimming but in the end dint, cox the sun is jux crazy..some slept while some continued playing..then we had some fun time at the arcade playing photohunting and childish games..went out for 'ownself fry' dinner outside..hahahaa 8 of us went over to simpang to had our supper then played at Crossfire for about 2 hours till about 12plus, only to find out tt de last bus is already GONE !! waited for bus10 instead to tamp int..walked back from tamp int to de chalet..chatting along de way, accompanied by the beautiful night sky with zealous stars..hahaa itz was indeed a rare sight in singapore..evedryone was already beat when we reached back at the chalet and most of us jux fell asleep after a while..

woke up in de morning and cleared up before checking out..realli enjoyed the chalet..thks alot to everyone who played a part to make this chalet possible..special thks to some of them for cooking and to kh for sponsoring us the bbq food..and wenyong for booking the chalet and many of them nvr pay him i think..hahaha anyway here's some random photos i've taken during chalet..

2am plus when we are walking back..






more photos to be uploaded sooooon..

From the moment that we met
My world was turned around
Upside down
To some degree I still regret
My memory for keeping you around
Girl I thought that you were mine
But my broken hearts been shattered
One too many times
And I don’t want to see you anymore
I’m just not that strong
I love it when you’re here,
But I’m better when you’re gone
I’m certain that I’ve given and oh how you can take
There’s no use in you looking
There’s nothing left for you to break

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It is more noble by silence to avoid an injury than by argument to overcome it
-Francis Beaumont.

perhaps i shuld learnt to remain silent until my mind is in gear, before i say anything in de future..but sometimes keeping everything inside jux dont feel nice..but i cant believe i've once again type those bullshits i've typed this morning..it have been long since i've did tt..

maybe if u learn to think from other ppl's perspective..maybe if i can be more understanding..maybe jux a lil more effort..

It takes more time and effort and delicacy to learn the silence of a people than to learn its sounds.
-Ivan Illich

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Being sorry is the highest act of selfishness, seeing value only after discarding it.
-Doug Horton

it was a long night..eyes closed but still aware of everything in de surrounding..clock's ticking, de fan blowing..i realise i've fallen too deep into this thing, to de extent tt i will get affected by every words u say or dont..

thought about our past, when i first get to know u..nice times never last..4 years have passed, there's only this one picture of u and me..de picture tts my alarm picture, de one i will always see first when i wake up..so many things i've wanted to do, taking my chance and hoping, jux hoping..but nth much have changed since then..de feeling of getting my hopes up and watching them fall everytime..looking forward to de times we could hav spent together, onli to be slapped with disappointment each time..but i'm already fallen too deep into this thing..4 5683 968

u were my source of strength n motivation during times when im down..u will never believe how many times i took out my phone for de past few months to look at ur pic, telling myself i have to endure n perservere..maybe it sounds stupid but tts wad i did..anyway this song came to my mind..

Because you loved me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cuz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/a5 ]

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cuz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining
your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cuz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cuz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

From Dennis's post:


The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you’ve already figured out

I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart that’s still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on
I’m barely holdin’ on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I’m an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they’re still looking for life

I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart that’s still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on
I’m barely holdin’ on to you

I’m hangin’ on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I’m hangin’ on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart that’s still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on
I’m barely holdin’ on to you
So I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on

Every word you said,
meant so much to me

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An excuse is worse than a lie, for an excuse is a lie, guarded.

so afterall my bad feeling was right after all.. n yepp i am now able to complete de phrase 'cox everytime i get my hope up and... watch them fall again and again' HAH ohwell..reversible words or maybe u jux dont mean wad u say..

went out to town with my parents today..saw frens tt i've not seen for so long..had lunch at jack's place and somehow the musics there are all so nice..love songs tt i may not ever get a chance to sing to you..went around walking n shopping..tried out some shirts n stuff..

i realli dunno wad i should or can say anymore..

But I can't spell it out for you,
No, it's never gonna be that simple

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The way you get meaning into your life
is to devote yourself to loving others,
devote yourself to creating something
that gives you purpose and meaning
-Morrie

I love you but i cant say that i always understand you..those pictures left a wierd feeling inside of me..how should i feel ? wad should i have said? wad can i do?

Went out again with my frens ytd to bugis for de third time tis week straight in a row..after tt we went over to peninsula to look for shoes n cheap casual clothes..everyone got something for themselves and i've got myself a t-shirt !! haha it's been so long since i bought something for myself.ohhh and there's de funny china man at this Federer sports shop who brightened up our day..telling us that we should not care what size the shoe is..lol we should've jux taken a video of this funny shit guy..after shopping until bout 8plus, we headed over to have our dinner at some makansutra place near esplanade n my frens started rating my jokes out of 10.. i failed most of de time thou, getting like 0,1,2,3,4 out of 10.. HAHA but at least i tried..im a funny guy, maybe.. here's some pictures from thurs,fri and sat..


shy guys..lol joey waving frantically..

2nd shot..yongkeat getting angry pointing to my camera..

wait until neck long long lo

still waiting

the building is moving !!

Dinggeng posing for de camera..lol ugly pose thou..

our caps say it all


LOL this guy got too obsessed with gaming..or maybe stressful Singapore drove him nuts

lol zanpaktou slinged over his back

I see your face in every flower,
your eyes in stars above.
It's just the thought of you,
the very thought of you,
my love
-Ray Noble

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oooo SO ORANGEY ! hahaha anyway IM UPDATING AGAIN..cox itz jux too boring..i feel like i've lost de touch of blogging after so long..

ANYWAY, A's is finally over and im both glad and not..hope it will turn out better den what i'm expecting..ohwell but itz FUN NOW !!! ended on thurs and was supposed to go for some class outing but in de end went out with de bunch of guys from s03,s04 to play basketball in de end..went home after lunch to start gaming..hahaa it's been months since i've touched any games..SHIIOOOOOOOOOK. went out with Alan de bodoh at around 6pm to shop for present for HIS err... lol from marina to suntec and back to marina den to suntec den WALK to bugis and to orchard, TAKA, Far east..but by the time we reached orchard, most shops were already closing and he haven found anything to buy yet so we were practically rushing around hoping some shops haven close..BUT so sad too bad for him.. TIRED day but it was nice n relaxing day away from de books, catching up with this bodoh while shopping..hahaa

FRIDAY which was ytd was MORE SHIOK ! ran at tamp stadium at aroung 8 myself cox the others are all lazy bums..haha got breathless in less than 6 rounds ahha..then had a swimming (water playing) session for almost 3hours at tamp swimming complex..3 people at first, with 4 more joining us a while later, den got 2 more..so there was 9 crazy guys whacking n wrestling each other in de pool..hahah ganging people, water slap n splash n riding on people, water fountain attack..it was all FUN FUN FUN ! hahaha but most of us ended up sunburnt, looking like red lobster afterwards and a burning sensation on our shoulders n face NOW..haha had lunch at ajisen raaaaaaaaaamen and went shopping for prom stuff n casual stuff after tt at bugis..rubbish place, walked for like 1 hour plus and end up in burger king slacking, looking at how young ahlians outside pose n smoke.. -.- anyway guys realli hate girls who smoke..waited like 1 hour for 2 more guys to come, walked around for awhile more before heading home..and itz back to gaming..oooooo hope my eyesight wun get worse anymore..

MANY MORE ACTIVITIES COMING UP !!! wooohoooooooooo so looking forward to de OUTING with you..hahhaha ohh and NCC chalet coming up soooooooon oso..and there's PROM too..

i jux got this bad feeling again..cox everytime i get my hope up and...

I see the sparkle of a million flashlights
a wonderwall of stars
But the one that's shining out so bright
is the one right where you are

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